Lisa

I could tell you about how my Tu and Thur runs this week were so hard for me.

Or I could share with you all the details about 3 separate fundraising events that I have in the works for raising monies for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society.  Neighborhood block party, winetasting, and a garage sale.  I’m also hopefully going to pull off a treadmill stunt just like Christie O.  That’s in the works.  I am bound and determined to meet my fundraising goal of $2900 – I am a little less than halfway there.  Failure is not an option.  I will work, work, work until I get there.

Or, I could tell you about the run I had today, my longest run E-V-A-H.  6.40 miles, with another 0.75 miles in warm-up and cool down.  THAT’S A LOT OF MILEAGE- wahoo! 

I could go into great detail about anyone of these things, BUT I would rather share with you what happened while I was at Costco today.  After my 6.40 mile run.  While I was still wearing my Team in Training shirt.

As I was checking out, the guy at the end of my check-out lane, the bagger dude but not really a bagger dude since he doesn’t bag any of the groceries, maybe I should call him the “boxer”  dude…..whatever.  That guy, he looks at me and says “Go Team!”.   This is what we and anyone that knows anything about Team in Training shouts as a sign of support and encouragement. 

My head pops up and I ask him- Do you know what Team in Training is?

Bagger/Boxer dude:  Yes.  I was an honored teammate.  I am 4 years out (I think he meant that his cancer has been in remission for four years).

note:  Each team for Team in Training has an honored teammate, someone picked by Leukemia & Lymphoma Society, that we run for.  We also run for those we personally know that have been affected by cancer.   

We were so excited to connect, really connect.  We chatted it up, exchanging as much information as we could in a short period of time.  He let me know that there was an Austin team for TnT (Team in Training) and that they were meeting tomorrow for a run and did I want to meet up with them.  I told him that I was part of a virtual team and that we were running the San Diego 1/2 marathon.  He will be there as well, meeting his bone marrow donor for the first time.   How effing cool is that?!!!!!

At times, I have found that training with a virtual team isolates me from the “people” aspect of who we are doing all this hard work for.  Now, I KNOW who I am doing it for.  His name is Mike and he is a boxer/bagger dude at Costco and he had cancer and now, he is competing in a 1/2  ironman triathlon.

He is but one face of cancer and he is the picture of health and I love it and it gives me hope that one day, this disease will be eradicated.

GO TEAM.

Donate here.

Last Tuesday’s run was fast for me- I hauled ass and kept on going!

Last Thursday’s run was the tempo run and it still remains hard for me.  This was the second time I did my tempo run outside and I find it is more difficult to push myself to run faster when I don’t have the treadmill to rely on.  Towards the end of my tempo run, I felt like I could have kept on going.  Weird thing is- I think the tempo runs ARE making me faster overall.  Amazing how this consistent training stuff works, isn’t it?

Saturday was my long run of 5 miles.  It took me until Mile 3 to feel completely warmed up and finally hitting my stride.  I hit an endorphin high around mile 3.25 and that carried me all the way to the end.  My last mile was at a 10:30 min pace, which is very fast for me and not my normal.  I am still using the run/walk method and loving every minute of it!

Fundraising the required minimum amount for LLS has been on my mind a lot lately.  I am bound and determined to think outside of the box, to raise the amount I need to for LLS, and to participate in the San Diego 1/2 Marathon with my team.  It will happen.

Oh yes, it will happen.

Last week’s weight:  169.2 lbs

This week’s weight:  167.4

Loss of 1.8 lbs- woot, woot!

I have been an exercise machine this week.  I am training for the 1/2 marathon in June, running with Team Shrinking Jeans.  My daily thoughts are consumed with training/running and fundraising.  After taking care of my family, that’s about *all* I do.

What’s that you say?  You would like to donate to the wonderful cause that I am running for (Leukemia & Lymphoma Society)?  You can either donate to me individually or to our team as a group (if donating to the team, it will be divided between all of us).  Go ahead, don’t let me stop you : ). 

So yes, I am very happy that I lost weight this week.  I will be even happier when I reach my fundraising goal (I am *almost* halfway there).  I will be ecstatic (and probably crying) when I cross the finish line at the 1/2 marathon with my team.

One last thing……Hottest Hookers in the Hood  (Team H) are going for the gold with this challenge!!!!!

Expecting a long this week about what’s been going on with Team in Training? 

Um nope, you aren’t going to get it.

Life has been super busy this past week, with my middle child turning 4 years old, hosting two birthday parties, and a visit from the grandparents.  Throw in all the running I have been doing, figuratively and literally, and yeah, I don’t have a long post in me!

However, I can tell you this.

I ran my longest training run yet: 5 miles……well, 5.11 miles to be exact (right around 1 hour).

What?  You didn’t hear me?  Here, my boys help me show you how many miles I ran (I have a daughter, too, but she was off playing somewhere in the house and can I just say how much I love this picture?!).

Yep, I ran 5 miles and lived to tell about it. 

Now, my body wants a nap.  And a massage.  And for someone to take care of EVERYTHING so that I can rest : ).

Donate here to Team Shrinking Jeans (we’re running a 1/2 marathon and raising $$ for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society).

Craptastic Morning

• Get all three children dressed and fed
• Toddler reaches up to kitchen table and pulls down a full glass of water onto himself and the floor
• Pre-school gets bitten by a spider and it swells up
• Kindergartner mouthy and sassy and pouty and whiney
• Stressed out and overwhelmed and tired by all that needs to be done
• Laundry, kitchen, toys picked up, mail sorted
• Pre-schooler’s birthday planned for tomorrow
• Pre-schooler’s family party for Saturday
• Need to buy present for him AND for a party my daughter is going to
• Set up “chore store” so that I can get my kids on board with doing chores and earning prizes
• worrying about fundraising, fundraising, fundraising for Team in Training
• must exercise/run this morning
• drop off each child in three different places
• run to Walmart to drop off donation letter request, pick up a few things
• run to Target for birthday presents (didn’t have at Walmart)
• scarf down breakfast and coffee

That was just this morning.  Have I mentioned that my husband has a work schedule that does not allow him to be around much?  I won’t go into specifics because ya’ll don’t need to know all the details, but suffice it to say that I do a lot of the “raising of the kids and taking care of the kids” by myself during the week.

Add a big ole heaping mess of “OMG, there is so much going on at Shrinking Jeans” and yes, I was feeling craptastic this morning.  My husband and Christy got to bear the brunt of my venting.

Then, I went for my run. 

My mind was completely free of “all the things I need to do”, the to-do lists put to the side for 39:38 minutes (3.53 miles).

That was the BEST 39:38 minutes of my life.

Now, I feel refreshed and like I can do anything.  The chores are still there to be done, the party still needs to be planned, the kids still need taken care of, my house still looks like a bomb went off in it, but folks, I did something for me- something that I enjoy and that frees me from my overcluttered, overwhelmed, overstressed mind.

And that, THAT is why I will keep running, even after the half marathon is over and done with.

Fantastic.

I totally think she has the right idea of chronicling her virtual team in training, training, so I am copying her!

Week 2 of training for the San Diego 1/2 Marathon is done, done, done!

I am a “follow the rules” kind of girl, so when I was told to run on Tues, Thur, and Saturday, then that is exactly what I did.  I took full advantage of the “rest” days and well, I rested.  Of course, some of those rest days are optional, meaning you can lift wights or do additional cardio work, but I cheated rested instead.

Last Tuesday was a timed run, meaning I was given an exact amount of time to run and of course, that is what I did.  30 minutes, 2.6 miles, 11:24 pace.

Thursday was my tempo run.  Every week, this is my hardest, sweatiest run.  I ran “easy” for one mile although easy running doesn’t really exist for me right now, then one mile of alternating running hard for 2 minutes/running easy for 2 minutes until I complete a 2nd mile, THEN one more “easy” mile again, whoever said running was easy.  A total of three miles.   

Thursday night our family received some hard news.  I’m not sharing the details right now.

When it came time to run my long run of 4 miles on Saturday, I was only too ready to hit the trail.  My spirit was weary from the Thursday news, stress was high, and I just needed to pound it out, free my mind from my troubles, and let my heart be free.  That four miles accomplished that- I did not think of one single thing while I ran.  Truth be told, I did not want to stop running and have to enter back into the real world.

Anyhoo, week 2 is over now and I am thanking GOD every day for showing me the beauty of running.  I may not be the fastest, I may not run the furthest, I may not be very elegant-looking when I run.  However, I seriously think that having found this avenue for me to release stress, to push my body, to cleanse my soul has saved my sanity at times.

And I am a much happier person for it.

BTW- can I get some comment love here?!!!!  This is my 100th post on my personal blog here at Shrinking Jeans- woot, woot!!!!!!!!

I posted this over at my personal blog Growing Up Mo’ but I know there’s a bunch of you that may not visit me over there you really should, I am so totally awesome-NOT!

I started running as a form of exercise in early October.

I ran my first 5K on November 7th, 2009.

I ran my first five miler on Thanksgiving Day.

I signed up to run the San Diego Rock N Roll 1/2 Marathon in June 2010, with Team Shrinking Jeans (part of Leukemia and Lymphoma Society’s Team in Training).  I am running for her, them, me, and you.

My normal pace is 12 minute miles, slowly inching my way closer to 11 minute miles on some days.

Today, I blew it out of the water and ran 3.02 miles in 29 minutes 30 seconds.

That would be an average pace of 9 minutes 46 seconds.

Happy dance, happy dance, happy dance.

Will I be able to do a repeat performance?

I think so.

I was so emotional over last week’s weigh-in, because of the big gain I had.  This week, I am not emotional and just more relieved.

Last week’s weigh-in:  171.5 lbs

This week’s weigh-in: 169 lbs

Loss of 2.5 lbs

I worked hard this past week, exercising consistently, making “healthier” choices, drinking tons of water, and limiting my snacking at night.   I keep hearing over and over how stress can lead to a weight gain (OK, it’s Jillian Michaels from the Biggest Loser TV show that keeps telling me that…..didn’t you know!  Well, I didn’t know but I think the lady trainer mega God is right).  I was in a funk last week but it has since passed, thank goodness.

I want to be at least 10-15 lbs lighter when I run the 1/2 marathon with Team Shrinking Jeans in June.  I just know my body will continue to thank me as I shed the pounds and have less weight to pound my knees and ankles as I run.  When I run, I imagine the two people I am running in memory of and let me just say, those thoughts only fuel me on.

I am very happy to be back in the 160’s and plan to stay here for a short while as I make my way to the 150’s.  I know what I need to do- now, I just have to keep doing it.  Couldn’t this be true for a lot of us?  We know what we need to do, but we just have to do it.  That’s the hard part though.  I say BRING IT ON.

Game on.

I am running the Rock n Roll San Diego 1/2 Marathon in June 2010 as part of the Team Shrinking Jeans.

1/2 Marathon = 13.1 MILES.

We will be training and fundraising as part of the Leukemia & Lymphoma’s Team in Training.  I have thought about this non-stop ever since the idea was introduced to me.  While running 13.1 miles is a very big deal, it has to be more than just about a run for me (I thought I would NEVER say that!).  It has to be in my heart.  If I am going to work hard at fundraising for an organization and if I am going to put in long hours training my body to run that distance, than my heart has to be into it.

My heart is into this.

My Aunt Elma died at the young age of 9 years old to leukemia.  She was one of 14 children to my grandparents, the youngest in the brood and a twin to boot.  She was diagnosed at the age of 7 years old in the early 1970’s.  She died a fast two years later, leaving her parents (my grandparents) devastated and her 13 other siblings reeling from grief.

What makes her story all the more real for me is that my grandparents spoke little to no English.  Thankfully, her oncologist spoke Spanish and was able to relay important information to them.

What makes it all too real for me is imagining my grandmother staying in the hospital with her youngest daughter as her body rages war against a beast, hoping and dreaming and wishing for a miracle.  Imagining what must have running through her Spanish-speaking head.  Imagining her missing her other children and having to leave them in the care of others.

What makes it all too real for me is imagining what my Aunt Emma, my Aunt Elma’s twin sister must have been thinking through all of this, missing her sister, the one she shared a womb with.

What makes it all too real for me is imagining my grandfather unable to bear the burden of taking his youngest daughter to chemo treatments and leaving that task to his oldest son to do- my father.  My dad took his baby sister to each of her treatments.  He was barely a father himself.

What makes it ALL TOO REAL for me is looking at MY own daughter, who is 6 years old and IMAGINING what my poor grandparents had to live through with their own child, experiencing the worst, most horrible nightmare that I can ever imagine.

Losing a child to cancer.

cancer sucks.  It sucks when it happens to an adult.  It sucks when it happens to a friend.  It sucks when it happens to a family member.  It especially sucks when it attacks the youngest in our world.

The fight to find a cure continues to this day.

This 1/2 marathon is a BIG DEAL for me personally- I have never run that distance, I just started running a few months ago, I never imagined that I would take part in a long distance run-  It will be a huge physical accomplishment for me.  It touches me in my body, it touches me in my heart, it touches me in my soul.

This run, this 1/2 marathon, this fundraising for LLS (Leukemia & Lymphoma Society)- it’s deeply personal.  I will train, I will fundraise, I will look cancer right in the eye and flip it the bird.

I run for her (my aunt).  I run for them (my grandparents, my dad and his siblings).  I run for me.  I run for you.

I run in the hopes that LLS can continue their research to find a cure for blood cancers and put an end to it for one and for all.

Please consider a donation to support my participation in Team in Training and to further LLS’s mission of fighting blood cancer research, education, and patient services.

Just click here to make a donation : ). Any amount is greatly appreciated.

I have so many thoughts running through my head my now and the one that seems to tie them all together is this word:

EXCUSES.

No more effing excuses.  I am re-thinking all those excuses (husband’s unemployment, investing in a real estate property/flipping it/still haven’t sold it, husband finding a job but now works out of town A LOT, managing the household, managing my three kids 6 and under, squeezing in all my blog commitments/IRL friend commitments/family commitments, finding time to exercise/eat right/stay motivated, and how about this, JUST BREATHE, plus a mryaid of other life details). and chucking them out the window.

Are you listening to me world?  NO MORE EXCUSES.

Today, I take charge of me and I AM PUTTING ME FIRST.  Oh, I am getting so emotional right now…..I am actually crying.

No more excuses.  I am just going to DO what I damn well KNOW I NEED to DO.

NOW.

So yeah, I am superwoman and supermom and superwife (my husband might disagree) and now, I am going to be SUPER-ME.

I will lose the last 15/20 lbs.  I will run a 1/2  marathon in June.  I will get my shit together.

Sorry for all the cussing.  I am feeling quite passionate all about this right now.

Can’t wait to meet all my new sisters (and brothers) maybe some of ya’ll cuss, too.  Good luck to everyone!

PS- I am UP this week and I don’t want to talk about it.  Thankyouverymuchnowgoodbye.